Your whisper is fast and silent. Those are newsreaders.
вторник, 09 июня 2009
понедельник, 08 июня 2009
Your whisper is fast and silent. Those are newsreaders.
They even don't know what exam I am having. They only care about results. They told me in person. "But she doesn't get angry, does she?" - looked curiously at me. Of course, I don't. How can I?
Tried to say a few words and received "Don't bother and go away!" as an answer. I understand and respect it, honestly. Everyone needs privacy.
I'll do it. I will pass the exam because I will never forgive myself for failing it. Despite it's shit Economics. XD (nope, it is not an official name of the subject)
But sometimes I'm dreaming of someone to worry for me, not the mark. To feel loved/needed not depending on marks. To call someone and hear sth nice as an answer. I was jealous when saw a friend calling her boyfriend after a successful exam, he told her how smart and good she is. Someone has something, while another one has something different.
I'll pass it. Just because. I do not need love.
Tried to say a few words and received "Don't bother and go away!" as an answer. I understand and respect it, honestly. Everyone needs privacy.
I'll do it. I will pass the exam because I will never forgive myself for failing it. Despite it's shit Economics. XD (nope, it is not an official name of the subject)
But sometimes I'm dreaming of someone to worry for me, not the mark. To feel loved/needed not depending on marks. To call someone and hear sth nice as an answer. I was jealous when saw a friend calling her boyfriend after a successful exam, he told her how smart and good she is. Someone has something, while another one has something different.
I'll pass it. Just because. I do not need love.
Your whisper is fast and silent. Those are newsreaders.
Just read one of friends had a nightmare... That one was even scarier than mine. And what I've had was weird - the guy from a party was running after me along one of streets of Kyiv shouting what a bitch I am. Quite scary...
What could it mean?
What could it mean?
Your whisper is fast and silent. Those are newsreaders.
Just listened to this subconsciously and caught some phrases reflecting my idea of a perfect impossible relationship... Perfect for me...
Your whisper is fast and silent. Those are newsreaders.
I'm in a weird mood - to see something spooky and...charming at the same time. Looking for creepy pictures online.
For today I'm in the mood from/of/by:
Creepy Russian dolls, found at some site. Never liked them too much, but today I see them as very nice ones:
Understanding how she feels
Orlan, a French artist. Maybe I'd like to be in her place... I've seen how THAT looks in real life. Not too scary in pics, but I'm afraid of thinking of reality. How could she do all that stuff while being...
What does it feel like to be in her shoes?
And Lolo Ferrari whom I've already mention here. A grotesque and beautiful appearance at the same time. Died in her sleep in 2000.If I ever decide to have silicone - I'll do sth close to the size of hers, noy anything other. As big as my skin will stretch.
For today I'm in the mood from/of/by:
Creepy Russian dolls, found at some site. Never liked them too much, but today I see them as very nice ones:
Understanding how she feels
Orlan, a French artist. Maybe I'd like to be in her place... I've seen how THAT looks in real life. Not too scary in pics, but I'm afraid of thinking of reality. How could she do all that stuff while being...
What does it feel like to be in her shoes?
And Lolo Ferrari whom I've already mention here. A grotesque and beautiful appearance at the same time. Died in her sleep in 2000.If I ever decide to have silicone - I'll do sth close to the size of hers, noy anything other. As big as my skin will stretch.
воскресенье, 07 июня 2009
Your whisper is fast and silent. Those are newsreaders.
No time even to eat, so have to do it in front of the laptop. A cookie in one hand, a USB device - in the other one. What do you think I tried to bite at first? XD
And what stupid and weird things do you do when extremely tired at the time of exams?
And what stupid and weird things do you do when extremely tired at the time of exams?
Your whisper is fast and silent. Those are newsreaders.
Whatever I've started today - nothing ended up in success. But I still hope I wil not fail with the dress top - changed it as I was told - thank you, girls! 
I will see what the result it as soon as I put it together.
A new problem has been discovered - I have no clue about how to make the collar of that dress. But I hope I'll be able to think the pattern out after I pass the exams.
Started 2 new pieces of jewelry - a gift for a friend's b-day, football-shaped earrings and a necklace. Thinking on how to paint the pattern on the balls as don't know what will hold on the kind of plastic I used.
Couldn't do it now because of my eternal problem of shaking hands - even pills didn't help me today. So I had to forget about all kinds of accurate work.
The 2nd outfit - if this can be used about jewelry - is the one I've told about, the German heart. The try to make it of plastic of 3 colors ended in a mix of a disgusting shade - and I had no better idea than turning it into some weird roses. Decided to make the hearts white and then paint them. I know it is possible, but don't know what with. Blue wings are to be made separately. ^^
Too many creative plans, but a lot of shit to learn. The exam in Economical Theory on Tuesday, in Ukrainian - on Wednesday. I do not fear for Ukrainian, but Economics freaks me out - I've hated it since it started, and the teacher is said to "fuck greatly" (c)
I was only more than happy to get a reply from I.M. - he answered my message with congrats with the Journalist's day - he wished me the same.
I am breaking the rules of true goths. I know many of you will be disappointed with me for having no certain style and tastes in music, movies etc. But I do have certain ones - they're just very different. The music of today has been of Eurodance style. Something I liked 9 years ago.
And question of the...well, I guess of the night, not day: where is it possible to find absolutely free porn in Kyiv? (I know the correct answer, curious if you know it as well)
I will see what the result it as soon as I put it together. A new problem has been discovered - I have no clue about how to make the collar of that dress. But I hope I'll be able to think the pattern out after I pass the exams.
Started 2 new pieces of jewelry - a gift for a friend's b-day, football-shaped earrings and a necklace. Thinking on how to paint the pattern on the balls as don't know what will hold on the kind of plastic I used.
Couldn't do it now because of my eternal problem of shaking hands - even pills didn't help me today. So I had to forget about all kinds of accurate work.
The 2nd outfit - if this can be used about jewelry - is the one I've told about, the German heart. The try to make it of plastic of 3 colors ended in a mix of a disgusting shade - and I had no better idea than turning it into some weird roses. Decided to make the hearts white and then paint them. I know it is possible, but don't know what with. Blue wings are to be made separately. ^^
Too many creative plans, but a lot of shit to learn. The exam in Economical Theory on Tuesday, in Ukrainian - on Wednesday. I do not fear for Ukrainian, but Economics freaks me out - I've hated it since it started, and the teacher is said to "fuck greatly" (c)
I was only more than happy to get a reply from I.M. - he answered my message with congrats with the Journalist's day - he wished me the same.
I am breaking the rules of true goths. I know many of you will be disappointed with me for having no certain style and tastes in music, movies etc. But I do have certain ones - they're just very different. The music of today has been of Eurodance style. Something I liked 9 years ago.
And question of the...well, I guess of the night, not day: where is it possible to find absolutely free porn in Kyiv? (I know the correct answer, curious if you know it as well)
суббота, 06 июня 2009
Your whisper is fast and silent. Those are newsreaders.
Here are the promised photos.
I've used a Gosurori pattern as a base for the dress top part. And decided to try to make that on the cloth I had to find out if the size fits me. So this is NOT what the dress will be in these photos.
The dress will have a zipper on the back instead of buttons on the front.
Sewn just to hold parts together, with a light color, without th sewing machine.
I'm asking those who are more experienced in sewing: what's wrong here?
HUGE PICS
I've used a Gosurori pattern as a base for the dress top part. And decided to try to make that on the cloth I had to find out if the size fits me. So this is NOT what the dress will be in these photos.
The dress will have a zipper on the back instead of buttons on the front.
Sewn just to hold parts together, with a light color, without th sewing machine.
I'm asking those who are more experienced in sewing: what's wrong here?
HUGE PICS
Your whisper is fast and silent. Those are newsreaders.
What do you think this is?
Your whisper is fast and silent. Those are newsreaders.
Did you know that American fastfood and depressant pills have the same effect?
пятница, 05 июня 2009
Your whisper is fast and silent. Those are newsreaders.
Mum just got a bit angry with me for hating couples. When another pair of happy people was shown on TV, I said a few tough words. And she told me that if I feel bad, it doesn't mean everyone else should also be unhappy. I didn't mean that at all. I just hate couples. I hate it when people say I did/said something I really did not.
I hate couples. Yes, they hurt me just because they're together. I am a jealous selfish ugly old bitch. I accept it.
My concept is a stupid one: malicious mizery. I really took the outer expression of this idea from a famous band's name. But why are all people around happy? Guys jump and run around their beauties trying to get a minute of their attention. It makes me sick.
I hate couples. Yes, they hurt me just because they're together. I am a jealous selfish ugly old bitch. I accept it.
My concept is a stupid one: malicious mizery. I really took the outer expression of this idea from a famous band's name. But why are all people around happy? Guys jump and run around their beauties trying to get a minute of their attention. It makes me sick.
Your whisper is fast and silent. Those are newsreaders.
Your whisper is fast and silent. Those are newsreaders.
05.06.2009 в 17:49
Пишет ~Chocolate:04.06.2009 в 22:13
Пишет Чеширский Кысь:"Горькая правда"
URL записи04.06.2009 в 22:04
Пишет Maneo:ХD
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Горькая правда)))
URL записи04.06.2009 в 21:35
Пишет Anri Cassandra Ma-re:Разговаривают две подружки:
- А вообще сейчас настоящие мужчины встречаются?
- Встречаются, но все чаще друг с другом. (с)
- А вообще сейчас настоящие мужчины встречаются?
- Встречаются, но все чаще друг с другом. (с)
Горькая правда)))
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Your whisper is fast and silent. Those are newsreaders.
@настроение:
Your whisper is fast and silent. Those are newsreaders.
And, maybe, it is also my real name that makes guys laugh and despise me? ... ... ...
I've remembered a weird thing: that intelligent one vanished after seeing me in my everyday goth/biker outfit
and getting to know my real name... The funniest thing is that he guessed it from the 1st time, as soon as I told him it is Western Ukrainian.
I've remembered a weird thing: that intelligent one vanished after seeing me in my everyday goth/biker outfit
and getting to know my real name... The funniest thing is that he guessed it from the 1st time, as soon as I told him it is Western Ukrainian.Your whisper is fast and silent. Those are newsreaders.
Stopped eating, just don't want to. Only tea and coffee.
Thanx God mum goes to work these days and doesn't see. It doesn't make me feel bad. I'm just indifferent to everything. And, maybe - at least I hope so- I'll lose my 5 kgs that make me overweight. Maybe then sb stupid would like me...
Thanx God mum goes to work these days and doesn't see. It doesn't make me feel bad. I'm just indifferent to everything. And, maybe - at least I hope so- I'll lose my 5 kgs that make me overweight. Maybe then sb stupid would like me...
четверг, 04 июня 2009
Your whisper is fast and silent. Those are newsreaders.
3:46 here. The sky has different shades of blue - somehow it reminds me of bleached jeans of a rock singer. XD
There's light in only 3 windows of the neighboring apartment block. 2 of them look as if a night light is on in the room. And one is like sb is really doing some business there.
Who she or he is? What is this person doing at such an early/late hour?
And, maybe, she/he has fallen asleep having forgotten to turn the light off?
Pics coming tomorrow.
There's light in only 3 windows of the neighboring apartment block. 2 of them look as if a night light is on in the room. And one is like sb is really doing some business there.
Who she or he is? What is this person doing at such an early/late hour?
And, maybe, she/he has fallen asleep having forgotten to turn the light off?
Pics coming tomorrow.
Your whisper is fast and silent. Those are newsreaders.
The windowsill again... I'm sitting on it looking down. Not much is needed to break this circle of loneliness. I'm sure there are no happy couples and loved girls in all places where people go after they pass away. So I might do one of 2 things - step out there or in here to take another coffee.
Many people say I'm insane about the idea of having a relationship. But it is not this way - I will never accept anyone, the person I'd be able to be with doesn't exist anymore. For 3 years already. I am just dreaming too often. Dreaming of someone to be near me and accept me as I am. Impossible, I know. That's why I'm doing my best to kill dreams. They're useless. And ugly big females have no right for them.
Sitting on a windowsill has been my habit for years. There's an option- in here or out there - unlike in real life where I have no choice being unable to change anything. This gives me an illusion of choice and helps to take loneliness and being single forever like a conscious choice. Just because there's no guy who would love me only and whom I'd ever accept.
Many people say I'm insane about the idea of having a relationship. But it is not this way - I will never accept anyone, the person I'd be able to be with doesn't exist anymore. For 3 years already. I am just dreaming too often. Dreaming of someone to be near me and accept me as I am. Impossible, I know. That's why I'm doing my best to kill dreams. They're useless. And ugly big females have no right for them.
Sitting on a windowsill has been my habit for years. There's an option- in here or out there - unlike in real life where I have no choice being unable to change anything. This gives me an illusion of choice and helps to take loneliness and being single forever like a conscious choice. Just because there's no guy who would love me only and whom I'd ever accept.
Your whisper is fast and silent. Those are newsreaders.
I need someone to help me rise above... (c)
Your whisper is fast and silent. Those are newsreaders.
WTF?? Thinking of that teacher makes me less nervous.
I guess I might be getting insane.
I guess I might be getting insane.