Your whisper is fast and silent. Those are newsreaders.
Everything failed again. Now I'm sure that one is also tired of pretending he likes me. Maybe he has realised he will get no body, and maybe he understood it's not pleasant to fuck bones. XD
We were replacing our Maths teacher. She is ill again. I know she's an old bitch, but I've been told about her health problems and... I'm sorry for her... Hope she'll get ok soon. Despite her hatred to me.
A Maths lesson in a 5th form. Thought it would be a nightmare, I hate kids and they laugh at my face and real name. But my wish to miss an Economics lesson legally was bigger than fear. And I also thought I'll be with a friend, and kids love her. Moreover, it's the 5th form who might be scared of me if I get angry and scream at them or sth like that. So we went there...
Their class mistress came in and said she will be present in the classroom. "Good, this means they will stay shut up" - I thought and closed the door. The torture seemed to have started...
My friend came out to the blackboard and started explaining the new topic. I was also scared because I know NOTHING in Maths and surely have forgotten what I had studied in the 5th form. =)
Then a lot of stupid questions were asked. Kids already know Rita, my friend, and I were a new person for them.
"Why are your eyes so green? How have you done this?" - "Lenses"
"Are you punk?" - "Goth"
"What form do you study in?" - "11th"
"Do we have the same Maths teacher?" - "Yes"
"Do you have makeup on your eyes now?" - "Yes." - "Cool! Me too!" *modern kids...*
I was only staring at my friend being a teacher. Children were sitting quietly because of their teacher's presence. And then...
...Then a girl called me and asked to explain the homework as she didn't understand. I came to her and tried to tell her how to do it. All the time she was looking at me curiously.
Have you understood? Ask me if you didn't get sth, ok?" - "Can you explain one more time?"
One more time. And then 3 more.
"...so what will be the answer here?" - "I don't know"
One more explanation.
"Diana, stop staring at me, look into the book!"
I said this and smiled. The girl listened and did what I said. We had done half of the task - I mean I had done..
As Rita said later, it is impossible to say no to that girl - she has eyes like "the cat from a famous cartoon". It's really true. She's so cute!!
"What shall we do next?" - "I don't know"
"I told you, just remember, it's not hard at all" - "Maybe I'll do it on my mobile phone?"
"But you will not have it at a test, believe me, this teacher is sure to take it away. Try to do by yourself. If you can't I'll help" - "Ok. Is it this way?"
She looked up at me and I realised I can't be angry with her for any reasons.
"Right! Well done! And now?" - "Cool, you have black manicure!"
"Thanx. So what is next?" - "We should finish this task like the previous one. So who will do it?"
"I think it will be you, I've already done mine at your age"- "Why me, I can't and you can..."
It lasted for some time, even I managed to learn all that. ^_^ Finally Diana did the task by herself. Hope she'll write the test in a good way. She told me she has 1 in Maths. A bad mark. I often get it too. >_<
Her class teacher asked the child if she had understood. She answered she had and I felt so happy...
And during the break those children were running after us begging to be their teachers again. We smiled and answered we will do our best.
At the English lesson I asked my friend if those tasks in Maths are done the way I told the girl. I was really scared of having explained a wrong way. ^^ But Rita said I did everything correctly.
I thought I'll be able to shout and be rude to them. I couldn't for some reasons.
I remember myself in the 5th form, how much I hated the grown-up whores who were shouting at us and pretending they're teachers. How much I hated when I didn't understand and they refused to explain and called me a stupid one. I hated them shaking their asses between rows of desks looking into the copybooks and whispering sth to each other. I hated them laughing at us.
So I did my best to show those kids I were like them And I understand and feel what they feel. We laughed together with them and talked to them.
Right, I don't like children. But these are not babies and not teenagers yet. They have not been spoiled by the school rude way of behavior and bringing up yet. They are schoolchildren who have just come from mostly friendly atmosphere of the elementary school. I didn't want them to feel what I felt having come to the high school.
I liked explaining a hundred times. I liked Diana staring at me asking funny questions. And I liked her having understood the task.
This was the only light of this day. And it keeps me alive now. I felt necessary.
We were replacing our Maths teacher. She is ill again. I know she's an old bitch, but I've been told about her health problems and... I'm sorry for her... Hope she'll get ok soon. Despite her hatred to me.
A Maths lesson in a 5th form. Thought it would be a nightmare, I hate kids and they laugh at my face and real name. But my wish to miss an Economics lesson legally was bigger than fear. And I also thought I'll be with a friend, and kids love her. Moreover, it's the 5th form who might be scared of me if I get angry and scream at them or sth like that. So we went there...
Their class mistress came in and said she will be present in the classroom. "Good, this means they will stay shut up" - I thought and closed the door. The torture seemed to have started...
My friend came out to the blackboard and started explaining the new topic. I was also scared because I know NOTHING in Maths and surely have forgotten what I had studied in the 5th form. =)
Then a lot of stupid questions were asked. Kids already know Rita, my friend, and I were a new person for them.
"Why are your eyes so green? How have you done this?" - "Lenses"
"Are you punk?" - "Goth"
"What form do you study in?" - "11th"
"Do we have the same Maths teacher?" - "Yes"
"Do you have makeup on your eyes now?" - "Yes." - "Cool! Me too!" *modern kids...*
I was only staring at my friend being a teacher. Children were sitting quietly because of their teacher's presence. And then...
...Then a girl called me and asked to explain the homework as she didn't understand. I came to her and tried to tell her how to do it. All the time she was looking at me curiously.
Have you understood? Ask me if you didn't get sth, ok?" - "Can you explain one more time?"
One more time. And then 3 more.
"...so what will be the answer here?" - "I don't know"
One more explanation.
"Diana, stop staring at me, look into the book!"
I said this and smiled. The girl listened and did what I said. We had done half of the task - I mean I had done..
As Rita said later, it is impossible to say no to that girl - she has eyes like "the cat from a famous cartoon". It's really true. She's so cute!!"What shall we do next?" - "I don't know"
"I told you, just remember, it's not hard at all" - "Maybe I'll do it on my mobile phone?"
"But you will not have it at a test, believe me, this teacher is sure to take it away. Try to do by yourself. If you can't I'll help" - "Ok. Is it this way?"
She looked up at me and I realised I can't be angry with her for any reasons.
"Right! Well done! And now?" - "Cool, you have black manicure!"
"Thanx. So what is next?" - "We should finish this task like the previous one. So who will do it?"
"I think it will be you, I've already done mine at your age"- "Why me, I can't and you can..."
It lasted for some time, even I managed to learn all that. ^_^ Finally Diana did the task by herself. Hope she'll write the test in a good way. She told me she has 1 in Maths. A bad mark. I often get it too. >_<
Her class teacher asked the child if she had understood. She answered she had and I felt so happy...
And during the break those children were running after us begging to be their teachers again. We smiled and answered we will do our best.
At the English lesson I asked my friend if those tasks in Maths are done the way I told the girl. I was really scared of having explained a wrong way. ^^ But Rita said I did everything correctly.
I thought I'll be able to shout and be rude to them. I couldn't for some reasons.
I remember myself in the 5th form, how much I hated the grown-up whores who were shouting at us and pretending they're teachers. How much I hated when I didn't understand and they refused to explain and called me a stupid one. I hated them shaking their asses between rows of desks looking into the copybooks and whispering sth to each other. I hated them laughing at us.
So I did my best to show those kids I were like them And I understand and feel what they feel. We laughed together with them and talked to them.
Right, I don't like children. But these are not babies and not teenagers yet. They have not been spoiled by the school rude way of behavior and bringing up yet. They are schoolchildren who have just come from mostly friendly atmosphere of the elementary school. I didn't want them to feel what I felt having come to the high school.
I liked explaining a hundred times. I liked Diana staring at me asking funny questions. And I liked her having understood the task.
This was the only light of this day. And it keeps me alive now. I felt necessary.
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18.03.2008 в 22:17how much I hated the grown-up whores
The same. Buut I sometimes shout at kids. Couse it my revenge.
And I also hate when they call us a little one. Stupid glamour whores without brains
So I did my best to show those kids I were like them And I understand and feel what they feel. We laughed together with them and talked to them.
Right. A good position
Imaging the some day she gets a 5. So happy will be you and she)))
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18.03.2008 в 22:29Thanx, so nice of you...
I shout too, mostly at young children and babies, I hate them, they're so annoying... Glamour whores...
I'm sure she'll get 10 or even 12 one day.
We used to be like these kids, and soon they will be like us.
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19.03.2008 в 01:00I'm proud of you.
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19.03.2008 в 15:13lol)))
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19.03.2008 в 15:14