Your whisper is fast and silent. Those are newsreaders.
I trusted them. Like most of people I love. They've been the closest ones for all my existence. Now they're trying to push me away from them. I know they're ashamed of me after the operation too, despite they say the marks cannot be seen all the time. I'm sorry for disappointing them... But sometimes my biggest dream is to feel as if sb loves me as it used to be in the past, when I wasn't ugly like now. When I used to be somebody...
Don't ask me who these people are, I love them too much to say anything bad about them. I just feel they're getting farther and farther from me. They only remind of themselves when I feel good - they intrude and spoil everything by making me a stupid doll in their powerful hands.
I'm afraid of losing them. I'm sorry one more time for having ugly eyes and no brains, for eternal health problems and no talent. I wish I could correct at least a part of this great mistake...
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Unfortunately the 1st impression isn't always true. I liked those girls from the courses, thought they're sincere... And then they turned out to be selfish and arrogant whores. I will not say a word and my attitude will remain the same, as if nothing has happened and nobody had let me down. I don't want them to feel bad or uncomfortable because of my attitude, so I'll kill the pain inside of myself. I still like them whatever they are. At least they're people who are themselves and I'm just a shadow. I shouldn't forget this. I'm not angry with anybody - what for?
My pain should remain only mine. Moreover, soon there will be nobody around. It's ok. Nothing happened.
Don't ask me who these people are, I love them too much to say anything bad about them. I just feel they're getting farther and farther from me. They only remind of themselves when I feel good - they intrude and spoil everything by making me a stupid doll in their powerful hands.
I'm afraid of losing them. I'm sorry one more time for having ugly eyes and no brains, for eternal health problems and no talent. I wish I could correct at least a part of this great mistake...
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Unfortunately the 1st impression isn't always true. I liked those girls from the courses, thought they're sincere... And then they turned out to be selfish and arrogant whores. I will not say a word and my attitude will remain the same, as if nothing has happened and nobody had let me down. I don't want them to feel bad or uncomfortable because of my attitude, so I'll kill the pain inside of myself. I still like them whatever they are. At least they're people who are themselves and I'm just a shadow. I shouldn't forget this. I'm not angry with anybody - what for?
My pain should remain only mine. Moreover, soon there will be nobody around. It's ok. Nothing happened.
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14.03.2008 в 23:34мы останемся в твоем дневе по крайней мере, если ты его не закроешь =))
"I still like them whatever they are"
молодец.. =)самое правильное решение..=)))
"I'm not angry with anybody - what for?"
действительно..незачем...да и легче жить без злость на кого-либо..
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14.03.2008 в 23:40I can't be angry with them, I don't know why... I don't want to hurt anyone even though I know it won't hurt them - they simply don't care. But nevertheless, it could make them feel pain if they had a different attitude.