Your whisper is fast and silent. Those are newsreaders.
I've got new contacts, they're bright green!!
Fisrtly I wanted cat ones, but my doctor said they're uncomfortable as I would have to look into a small hole, and this would be almost impossible when it is dark, so that I'd be nearly blind. So I chose these ones.
Today I'm having an interview with Igor Miroshnychenko, the newsreader I was dreaming of for 4 years...lol, this was my dream then and I never thought it will ever come true. Now it's just a part of my work. I wonder if he gets scared of my gothic look...and if he recognises me.
But nevertheless I'm worrying... So wish me good luck!
The German guy I met online is taking over me, I even had a dream about him this night - it was in English. I'm not in love, but he is my meaning... Yesterday I told him I missed him while he was offline. He asked me not to get addictd to him. I didn't say I already am despite I wanted to. This would be too much for his understanding. I don't want to lose it.
Kaori, now I'm just like you - pictures of some people are the essential part of your life. I also stare at his pic imagining him being with me, here, wherever I am. I talk to the pic, I realise he'll never understand me. A perfect one...
I decided to email him a short video with myself, made by a mobile. Is this a good idea? I'm so much afraid of losing him...
And I'm also showing my pic with the contacts.
Fisrtly I wanted cat ones, but my doctor said they're uncomfortable as I would have to look into a small hole, and this would be almost impossible when it is dark, so that I'd be nearly blind. So I chose these ones.
Today I'm having an interview with Igor Miroshnychenko, the newsreader I was dreaming of for 4 years...lol, this was my dream then and I never thought it will ever come true. Now it's just a part of my work. I wonder if he gets scared of my gothic look...and if he recognises me.
But nevertheless I'm worrying... So wish me good luck!The German guy I met online is taking over me, I even had a dream about him this night - it was in English. I'm not in love, but he is my meaning... Yesterday I told him I missed him while he was offline. He asked me not to get addictd to him. I didn't say I already am despite I wanted to. This would be too much for his understanding. I don't want to lose it.
Kaori, now I'm just like you - pictures of some people are the essential part of your life. I also stare at his pic imagining him being with me, here, wherever I am. I talk to the pic, I realise he'll never understand me. A perfect one...
I decided to email him a short video with myself, made by a mobile. Is this a good idea? I'm so much afraid of losing him...
And I'm also showing my pic with the contacts.
Вопрос: Should I email the video with myself?
| 1. Yes, definitely. | 3 | (75%) | |
| 2. No, never. | 0 | (0%) | |
| 3. Not now, maybe later. | 1 | (25%) | |
| 4. Forget him, do the impossible thing. | 0 | (0%) | |
| Всего: | 4 | ||
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14.04.2007 в 02:05secondly, good luck to you!
the contacts are awesome!
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14.04.2007 в 23:00It was wonderful, I mean the interview!!!
I try to be careful, but loneliness has driven me crazy... It will be (or maybe it has already been) a Fleur concert... Last year it was on April, 21, we both enjoyed it and each other... And this year he is sure to be there wit his whore!!!! I won't be able to deal with it....
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17.04.2007 в 13:53Loneliness is forever as I will never like anyone, not even mentioning love. The German guy is just online, I'm a name in the contact list for him and nothing more... He doesn't even realise he is the whole Universe for me... I can only like someone online, but in real life Kyiv After Midnight will always remain the best one and the only one I love. Even when I die my feelings will stay alive...
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18.04.2007 в 02:57And I can say I feel the same most of the time.
But... there's still hope. I say such things every now and then, but deep inside I still believe_.
It helps me to get along.
I think this might work for you too.
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18.04.2007 в 17:36I used to believe, to dream... But this is no use as dreaming and hopes are waste of time... He is with his whore, that's the problem. And she's much better than me...
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19.04.2007 в 02:17I say - fuck him. fuck her.
you have to get over it.
go on. just go on.
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19.04.2007 в 18:59I have really strange points of view on this world, I will try to put them online in my next journal entry...
I can't get over as I still love him, this cursed feeling is stronger than me...
I suppose he fucks her with all his love. :\
Going on? Who for? What for? I really miss him...
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20.04.2007 в 02:16I wish I could...
but you really have to get over it. by yourself.
crying over him until forever is not the best way of living a life. and you know it.
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20.04.2007 в 19:18No one except him can help me...
You say "Life"? There's no life, there's stupid existing.
There can be only one serious feeling in life. I've already had and lost it.
That German guy is really cute... I miss him...And he doesn't answer me... I am addicted to him but this is the only thing that helps me not to lose my mind...
"...Your eyes are so blue, I can't look away..."
His eyes are really beautiful...
But I will always keep thinking of my love, no one would be able to deal with that. And I also don't want to fuck with anyone, I'm still a virgin and I don't want to lose that status...