Your whisper is fast and silent. Those are newsreaders.
суббота, 05 мая 2007
Your whisper is fast and silent. Those are newsreaders.
Your whisper is fast and silent. Those are newsreaders.
среда, 02 мая 2007
Your whisper is fast and silent. Those are newsreaders.
пятница, 27 апреля 2007
Your whisper is fast and silent. Those are newsreaders.
I let him hold my hand.
I didn't feel uncomfortable.
Despite I have seen him the first time in my life.
He has a girlfriend.
I don't mind.
He called me a beauty.
He kissed my black bloody lips.
He emailed me the song he likes.
I loved it too.
And him - much more than ever.
A virtual fantasy - not more.
But it has taken over my life...
Just like some of my friends do - they choose a j-rock star and adore him. Live, breathe and die for them.
He is not a star. He's just a German goth/metalhead guy. Nevertheless...
I didn't feel uncomfortable.
Despite I have seen him the first time in my life.
He has a girlfriend.
I don't mind.
He called me a beauty.
He kissed my black bloody lips.
He emailed me the song he likes.
I loved it too.
And him - much more than ever.
A virtual fantasy - not more.
But it has taken over my life...
Just like some of my friends do - they choose a j-rock star and adore him. Live, breathe and die for them.
He is not a star. He's just a German goth/metalhead guy. Nevertheless...
вторник, 24 апреля 2007
Your whisper is fast and silent. Those are newsreaders.
The best friend for someone like us can only be ...
Here is who makes this world a bit easier to live in:
Here is who makes this world a bit easier to live in:
среда, 18 апреля 2007
Your whisper is fast and silent. Those are newsreaders.
This is my dad and a cat... There's sth wrong with this pic... How do you think, what's that? 
воскресенье, 15 апреля 2007
Your whisper is fast and silent. Those are newsreaders.
суббота, 14 апреля 2007
Your whisper is fast and silent. Those are newsreaders.
Your whisper is fast and silent. Those are newsreaders.
I had an interview with Igor Miroshnychenko, the one I had been in love with for 4 years! He's SO COOL, I'VE NEVER TALKD TO A PERSON LIKE HIM!!!!! We talked for some time, then I asked him a few questions. It was so interesting to him, I think I could do this for ages! He's the most interesting person I've ever met.
Talking about gothic, politics, piercing, music, travelling, driving.... I wish this happened on more time.. Even more than once. His wife is happy to have him as a husband....
I'm going to meet him when I'll pass him the Sacratum magazine with his interview... I wonder what will happen then...
And...saying "goodbye" to me he touched my hand!!!! The magazine I had with me will be sacred for me forever - he held it in his hands!!!!!!!
Talking about gothic, politics, piercing, music, travelling, driving.... I wish this happened on more time.. Even more than once. His wife is happy to have him as a husband....
I'm going to meet him when I'll pass him the Sacratum magazine with his interview... I wonder what will happen then...
And...saying "goodbye" to me he touched my hand!!!! The magazine I had with me will be sacred for me forever - he held it in his hands!!!!!!!
пятница, 13 апреля 2007
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Your whisper is fast and silent. Those are newsreaders.
I've got new contacts, they're bright green!!
Fisrtly I wanted cat ones, but my doctor said they're uncomfortable as I would have to look into a small hole, and this would be almost impossible when it is dark, so that I'd be nearly blind. So I chose these ones.
Today I'm having an interview with Igor Miroshnychenko, the newsreader I was dreaming of for 4 years...lol, this was my dream then and I never thought it will ever come true. Now it's just a part of my work. I wonder if he gets scared of my gothic look...and if he recognises me.
But nevertheless I'm worrying... So wish me good luck!
The German guy I met online is taking over me, I even had a dream about him this night - it was in English. I'm not in love, but he is my meaning... Yesterday I told him I missed him while he was offline. He asked me not to get addictd to him. I didn't say I already am despite I wanted to. This would be too much for his understanding. I don't want to lose it.
Kaori, now I'm just like you - pictures of some people are the essential part of your life. I also stare at his pic imagining him being with me, here, wherever I am. I talk to the pic, I realise he'll never understand me. A perfect one...
I decided to email him a short video with myself, made by a mobile. Is this a good idea? I'm so much afraid of losing him...
And I'm also showing my pic with the contacts.
Fisrtly I wanted cat ones, but my doctor said they're uncomfortable as I would have to look into a small hole, and this would be almost impossible when it is dark, so that I'd be nearly blind. So I chose these ones.
Today I'm having an interview with Igor Miroshnychenko, the newsreader I was dreaming of for 4 years...lol, this was my dream then and I never thought it will ever come true. Now it's just a part of my work. I wonder if he gets scared of my gothic look...and if he recognises me.
But nevertheless I'm worrying... So wish me good luck!The German guy I met online is taking over me, I even had a dream about him this night - it was in English. I'm not in love, but he is my meaning... Yesterday I told him I missed him while he was offline. He asked me not to get addictd to him. I didn't say I already am despite I wanted to. This would be too much for his understanding. I don't want to lose it.
Kaori, now I'm just like you - pictures of some people are the essential part of your life. I also stare at his pic imagining him being with me, here, wherever I am. I talk to the pic, I realise he'll never understand me. A perfect one...
I decided to email him a short video with myself, made by a mobile. Is this a good idea? I'm so much afraid of losing him...
And I'm also showing my pic with the contacts.
Вопрос: Should I email the video with myself?
| 1. Yes, definitely. | 3 | (75%) | |
| 2. No, never. | 0 | (0%) | |
| 3. Not now, maybe later. | 1 | (25%) | |
| 4. Forget him, do the impossible thing. | 0 | (0%) | |
| Всего: | 4 | ||
понедельник, 09 апреля 2007
Your whisper is fast and silent. Those are newsreaders.
Кто из нас не просыпался порой до рассвета после сна без сновидений, столь сладкого, что нам становился почти желанным вечный сон смерти, или после ночи ужаса и извращенной радости,когда в клетках мозга возникают видения страшнее самой действительности, живые и яркие, как всякая фантастика, исполненные той властной силы, которая делает таким живучим готическое искусство, как будто созданное для тех, кто болен мечтательностью?
Оскар Уайльд, "Портрет Дориана Грея"
Оскар Уайльд, "Портрет Дориана Грея"
Your whisper is fast and silent. Those are newsreaders.
Online life is taking over me, it has replaced my real one. No one disturbs my real-life friends anymore, at last they can be free, without me calling every day just to hear them...
You're online too. That's why I'm writing in English, not just because it's easier for me to express my thoughts that way...
I realise I'm just a name in your contact list, not more. No one takes online talks as seriously as I do. But you're the meaning of my life, each day of it means just to waste time until you come online...
I've never had anything like that, especially to someone I have just talked with several times...
My friends say I'm in love. IT ISN'T TRUE!!!!I'm not as love doesn't exist for me anymore as a part of reality! it's only in my fuckin dreams and everyone knows who it belongs to.
So what is it? Just a stupid search of the feeling of being loved and significant? Or tha desire to fuck of the real life?
Everything disappears when I talk to you. Even my tears don't hurt so badly. Yes, they still do, but not the way it happens when someone of us if offline.
What's going on with me? I'm scared, what can I do with all this?????????
You're online too. That's why I'm writing in English, not just because it's easier for me to express my thoughts that way...
I realise I'm just a name in your contact list, not more. No one takes online talks as seriously as I do. But you're the meaning of my life, each day of it means just to waste time until you come online...
I've never had anything like that, especially to someone I have just talked with several times...
My friends say I'm in love. IT ISN'T TRUE!!!!I'm not as love doesn't exist for me anymore as a part of reality! it's only in my fuckin dreams and everyone knows who it belongs to.
So what is it? Just a stupid search of the feeling of being loved and significant? Or tha desire to fuck of the real life?
Everything disappears when I talk to you. Even my tears don't hurt so badly. Yes, they still do, but not the way it happens when someone of us if offline.
What's going on with me? I'm scared, what can I do with all this?????????
воскресенье, 25 марта 2007
Your whisper is fast and silent. Those are newsreaders.
Happy birthday to you, Kaori!
You're one of my best friends, you already know that.
I'd like to wish you:
-to have people who will be with you whatever happens;
-not to lose but only to get;
-let all the surprises of life be pleasant;
-and, finally...
LET THERE NEVER BE LONELINESS IN YOUR LIFE!!!!
You're one of my best friends, you already know that.
I'd like to wish you:
-to have people who will be with you whatever happens;
-not to lose but only to get;
-let all the surprises of life be pleasant;
-and, finally...
LET THERE NEVER BE LONELINESS IN YOUR LIFE!!!!
суббота, 17 марта 2007
Your whisper is fast and silent. Those are newsreaders.
I didn'teven think of how painful might an office change be. But now...
A place where he kissed me at the kitchen. We didn't notice my dad's colleague passing by.
My best photo was made in front of this building.
I first wore my contacts with makeup here.
They weren't afraid of our gothic look at all...
I came to him from here..
He got to know my dad better here...
My greatest pain, disappointment, grief and happiness took place here.
SO WHAT FUCK DOES IT ALL DIE???????
I'm losing a place where I felt better than at home...........
A place where he kissed me at the kitchen. We didn't notice my dad's colleague passing by.
My best photo was made in front of this building.
I first wore my contacts with makeup here.
They weren't afraid of our gothic look at all...
I came to him from here..
He got to know my dad better here...
My greatest pain, disappointment, grief and happiness took place here.
SO WHAT FUCK DOES IT ALL DIE???????
I'm losing a place where I felt better than at home...........
суббота, 03 марта 2007
Your whisper is fast and silent. Those are newsreaders.
I can!!!!I must!!!I have to!!!!
You, whore, what have you done to me?? To us?? You have taken away our happiness and you're glad?
Your beautiful smile and lips kissed by him....And a strong hit of my leg!!! What - our princess is disappointed/?? And wasn't she while stealing him?
No - bitches can't feel ashamed. I will fuck you out of this world, you'll never be pissing around my life anymore!!!!!!!!!
You, whore, what have you done to me?? To us?? You have taken away our happiness and you're glad?
Your beautiful smile and lips kissed by him....And a strong hit of my leg!!! What - our princess is disappointed/?? And wasn't she while stealing him?
No - bitches can't feel ashamed. I will fuck you out of this world, you'll never be pissing around my life anymore!!!!!!!!!
суббота, 20 января 2007
Your whisper is fast and silent. Those are newsreaders.
суббота, 25 ноября 2006
Your whisper is fast and silent. Those are newsreaders.
I am alone again. He said he doesn't love me anymore and told me 2 4get about him. Just pain and blood and nothing more.
I did my best to make him happy, I chnged myself according 2 his likes and dislike.
I have presented him my heart and soul. He burnt all that. He hates me now.
I hope I'll manage to kill myself tonight.
Bye to everyone who liked me.I'm sorry for the things I did the wrong way. But I was just a person - not a perfect one. I died for all you and for him especially. No one needs me in this world now.
I don't have the meaning of my fuckin' life now. I have to go. you will alll be grtefu later. Yes, I know you'll feel some kind of pain at the first time, but later you'll understand everything.
and please, if someone knows or just sees him somewhere,tell him I died with his name on my lips
.....I loved you all........
Bye.
Forever yours, Orchid
I did my best to make him happy, I chnged myself according 2 his likes and dislike.
I have presented him my heart and soul. He burnt all that. He hates me now.
I hope I'll manage to kill myself tonight.
Bye to everyone who liked me.I'm sorry for the things I did the wrong way. But I was just a person - not a perfect one. I died for all you and for him especially. No one needs me in this world now.
I don't have the meaning of my fuckin' life now. I have to go. you will alll be grtefu later. Yes, I know you'll feel some kind of pain at the first time, but later you'll understand everything.
and please, if someone knows or just sees him somewhere,tell him I died with his name on my lips
.....I loved you all........
Bye.
Forever yours, Orchid
четверг, 24 августа 2006
Your whisper is fast and silent. Those are newsreaders.
Sitting in a cafe I noticed 2 waitresses - a young one and an older one.The old one is rather overweight but trying to look younger.The young one (I call her "a goat")is tall and thin.They look like two bitches - a mother and a daughter.Discussing the visitors of the cafe and spoiling its good name.
Here is a harmful influence of bitches.
Here is a harmful influence of bitches.