Your whisper is fast and silent. Those are newsreaders.
I will NEVER be blonde again. Yes, black hair looks ugly on me. I know everyone liked me more when I used to be blonde - and told me I'm ugly for unknown reasons. Now I have black hair and the same result. Operations have changed everything.

My mood's pics are stupid - just a few brushes and light. I agree. But the funniest thing is that when one of Them does the same - it's cute. Law of nature. Ok, it must be this way. K. once told me that... She's a bitch and she's right.

An interview for me is beneath his star dignity. Of course, what else can be. This is Orchid, and nothing is worse for a star's reputation than answering her questions. Even though they're for a magazine.

I do what I want and don't attend her lessons. Or I do attend when I want. She has mistaken a bit - if I were present only when I want, it would never happen. XD

You're absolutely right - I'm the worst one.
You can tell me more bad things about myself in the comments.
It's me.
Spit at me.
Slap me.
Have fun. =))

@музыка: Елена Войнаровская: Генератор ненужной боли

@настроение: fuckin

18:58

Inside

Your whisper is fast and silent. Those are newsreaders.
I'm drawing plants and flowers... A good mood, so strange... But there is just what there is. Flowers, night and sth more..just find ^^...




@музыка: Apocalyptica: Peace

@настроение: calm

Your whisper is fast and silent. Those are newsreaders.
A perfect button for a coat =)


What a big world... And what a small cat




@музыка: Moi dix Mois: Front Et Baiser

@настроение: meow

Your whisper is fast and silent. Those are newsreaders.
...why this sometimes happens. There are people I don't know in real life, but it seems we've known each other for ages. I mean - I feel like that, I wish it was possible to see someone's thoughts so clearly.

Maybe there's any explanation for this? And maybe not - and all of us has to carry out this definition. Personally. For himself or herself. It still belongs to my favorite folder of my mind - "Unexplained".

The most happy minutes in life are when you're proud of someone. Having felt this for quite a long time I got strong enough to realise it just now, not earlier. The reason is still the same... ;)

I'm proud of My Prince, more and more with each day, the more information I get...the more I wonder if he is a real person or another one created by my imagination. No, all the information has been told by him. =) He has done his room makeover all by himself; he's interested in philosophy and science, and even in what this world is (I didn't expect sth like this from a guy, it was a nice surprise for me); he's a pilot; he's German; he knows English... And he seems to be real.

*I wish my aunt kept her promise* ^^ The funniest thing is that I know there will be no disappointment, whatever reality is.

I'm sure I don't know everything yet. The more I know, the more addicted I will become. But you know what? There are positive addictions. The ones that give you the strength to stand your ground at hard times. This is one of them. There are people whose words make us happy whatever they say. And My Prince is one of them.

All this might look like some kind of a letter or sth. It's not - these are thoughts. Without Photoshop or makeup. Straight from the inverted brains that will lose their abilities as soon as someone tries to put them in the right place.

My Prince is the light image in my mind and not existing (by words of some friends) soul. And this light lets me see where to go next. It's a talent to be like that. I don't think it can be gained - people are born with it. And no wonder he has it.

You can never know whether you have this feature or not. And you will never know - it is a secret of people who love you. The only way to get it is to get this information from one of them. Not everyone would do it - as becoming arrogant is the esential feature of human nature.

I'm sure in you, My Prince. That's why I revealed it.
I'm proud of you.
@_@








@музыка: London After Midnight: Kiss (club mix)

@настроение: German and proud

Your whisper is fast and silent. Those are newsreaders.


@музыка: Evanescence: Where will you go

@настроение: crushed and dreaming of...

20:44

Your whisper is fast and silent. Those are newsreaders.
I had almost came into virtual life - I even had a bf there, I even don't care he's a murderer in real life. he wasn't ashamed of me, he kissed and hugged me whatever I was wearing, and even when there were tears on my ugly face. He said I was beautiful... And tole me he loved me and was able to do anything I could have asked about. I was almost there, but... it was so scary... That other world, the virtual one, started taking over me. Thoughts were made of sth different, not of sth usual thoughts are. My mind became getting information in a completely different way. The only place where I was able to perceive everything around was there. I got scared and stepped back from the edge
Maybe people feel the same when they're dying? This is being between the 2 worlds too. And it seems to me it's scary. But th other world is perfect in comparison with this one, there is no pain... The world of dead and the virtual world... Maybe they're one place? I'm scared of passing there forever being still physically alive. But what if there is really no pain?

@музыка: Moi dix Mois: Lamentful Miss

@настроение: disappointed

20:07

*ROFL*

Your whisper is fast and silent. Those are newsreaders.
From the site of our fuckin school:

Screenshot by Orchid

@настроение: LOL

21:15

That's it:

Your whisper is fast and silent. Those are newsreaders.

  1. I have classic black hair

  2. My eyes are gray

  3. My skin is pale, but not completely white

  4. I am not pierced

  5. I have no tattoos

  6. My eyebrows are natural, not drawn after shaving off

  7. I sometimes wear dark green contacts - just because I want this

  8. My hairstyle is usual, long hair nearly reaching the waist

  9. I haven't had my ribs removed

  10. No artificial parts in my body

  11. I don't wear black all the time

  12. I don't smoke, drink or take drugs

  13. Hanging out all the time - it's not about me

  14. I don't do everyday makeup with artificial blood

  15. Yes, I have not been born with makeup

  16. I even sleep without it, can you imagine that?

  17. My eyesight is -13, that's right

  18. But I'm going to get a driving licence

  19. My manicure is natural, sometimes long and sometimes short

  20. I have a stupid name, many people laugh at it


  21. I'm not a file suitable for Photoshop.


  22. I'm Orchid.real



Are you disappointed?



@музыка: Cruxshadows: Clerestory

@настроение: what? I'm insane

16:04

Today

Your whisper is fast and silent. Those are newsreaders.
Having woken up I turned on the computer. My Prince looked at me from the screen with his innocent blue eyes. I kissed his pic and said: "Guten Morgen!" Smiled again and went to the kitchen to make coffee. Then a thought appeared - I should have made one more cup of coffee and bring it to the room. =) I'll be right back, My Prince...
Talking to pics is a bad habit. But this is what helps me not to become completely insane...
*listening to what my lifestyle started from*
So what is eternity, My Prince?

@музыка: Apocalyptica feat. Nina Hagen: Seemann

@настроение: romantic/thoughtful

Your whisper is fast and silent. Those are newsreaders.
It's really hard when nobody cares...
Wtf am I going there tomorrow?


@музыка: Ольга Пулатова: Венера

@настроение: lost

19:55

Foreseen

Your whisper is fast and silent. Those are newsreaders.
I feel sth again... Sth bad will happen. It might look strange, but I cannot explain what happens to me. It's just some feeling of sth bad coming...
I don't know what it can be. Sth is going to happen..
STH BAD IS GOING TO HAPPEN

@музыка: Dust Heaven: Холод

@настроение: scared&anxious

22:18

silence

Your whisper is fast and silent. Those are newsreaders.
I have so many friends before a test in Ukrainian, Literature, German or English...
But I am also a living creature. There are minutes when talking to anyone is the only way to survive. Where are all people then? Where are they now? Definitely not with me.
I will not ask for help.
I'm a strong guy. And I kill all the pain by myself. I don't need help.
I'm talking to a photo, the only thing still looking at me... Does he see me? Real people don't.
Nobody? Perfect!
Nobody but me... Used to it. Nothing special. Existence passes by as usual. Through me. The already transparent me...

@музыка: Fleur: Опасная Бритва

@настроение: deleted for transparency

Your whisper is fast and silent. Those are newsreaders.
www.segodnya.ua/news/832650.html#comments

I work in the underground magazine with her sister, the older one. And she once suggested introducing her younger sister to me...
Rest in peace...


@настроение: down

Your whisper is fast and silent. Those are newsreaders.
My Prince also missed me!!!! he told me!
he has almost finished the makeover of his room - and I'm so proud of him.. he's the best whataver he does.
Ich liebe...

@музыка: Cruxshadows: East

@настроение: crushed and proud

19:14

My kitty =)

Your whisper is fast and silent. Those are newsreaders.
Don't mind the stupid end.
www.youtube.com/watch?v=EIjNZPxhxUk


@музыка: Fleur: Сегодня

@настроение: in love

00:16 

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22:41

Flowers

Your whisper is fast and silent. Those are newsreaders.
Yes, it is sometimes I last had more than a year ago. I love growing and drawing them by myself.
 мурла , here are the flowers I told you about =) :

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@музыка: Cruxshadows: Citadel

@настроение: dreamy

Your whisper is fast and silent. Those are newsreaders.
I'm back.
My Prince is blonde now! So cute!!!! :heart: This already means he feels better. I'm happy for him =)
I lost a few more people I loved... But D. can always make me smile inside - as I never smile on the face, this exprеssion doesn't suit me.
He's the light of my life.
And more good news: my Photoshop works are already in people's diaries!!! This means I am able to do sth! I'm glad, never expected that would ever have such an honour. Thank you!!!! :squeeze:
Got a new video of my cat - coming soon.
I know my happy mood is not for a long time as loneliness cannot be healed. Anyway - a portion of the German sweet medicine makes me feel better.



@музыка: Cruxshadows: Cassandra

@настроение: happy/in love

22:43

the same

Your whisper is fast and silent. Those are newsreaders.
I'm losing people again...
So were I right to be ready to close the diary?
*thinking*
I'm sorry for my stupid thoughts... I should have kept this all inside...

@музыка: empty silence

@настроение: lonely

19:41

strange...

Your whisper is fast and silent. Those are newsreaders.
I received a compliment from a local emo... *LOL*
She commented my pic: "you know, I never noticed you before, but you're beautiful..." I thanked her, it's really nice to hear. But now I wonder what she wants from me. No compliments can be sincere, especially from the people who (used to) despise me.
Interesting...

@музыка: Cruxshadows: Return

@настроение: amazed