Your whisper is fast and silent. Those are newsreaders.
Came home a few hours ago after visiting him. He's slowly but surely getting better, and, of course, it makes me feel glad. He does not deserve that pain, I wish I could help him in any possible way. He asked me to come when we talked on the phone, so after the last lecture I ran to him.
And - again... I did what I shouldn't have done. What is a sign of feeling/relationship/fairytale for me is a common friendly thing for him. I still remember his hand on mine, his voice... And I also know I'm guilty, I shouldn't have entered a territory of a young beauty.
You know, I liked visiting him because... Kaori, I think you will understand me in this - something just like you wrote some years ago about Hyde. Same here - my friend was in that certain situation, and I came just to be there for him. And without any further/other purpose.
It was our last meeting. I promised to disappear like I do from lives of male friends when they have girlfriends. This one doesn't want to let me go, but else I wouldn't be able to pretend being polite and tolerate. I'd be getting angrier and angrier... And nothing will ever help me. But my note is still alive: he can always rely on me if he has problems or needs help. I will just be closed for communication. It's like walking on nails for me - dealing with a friend who has a beautiful loved girl. I am just a shadow on the wall, call me when you need anything... I'll keep the memory of those minutes forever - together with footprints of other sweet moments of reality. I live in memories. And these will keep me being for a while as well. They are illegal. And I know I will have to pay for them - with inner or outside blood.
And - again... I did what I shouldn't have done. What is a sign of feeling/relationship/fairytale for me is a common friendly thing for him. I still remember his hand on mine, his voice... And I also know I'm guilty, I shouldn't have entered a territory of a young beauty.
You know, I liked visiting him because... Kaori, I think you will understand me in this - something just like you wrote some years ago about Hyde. Same here - my friend was in that certain situation, and I came just to be there for him. And without any further/other purpose.
It was our last meeting. I promised to disappear like I do from lives of male friends when they have girlfriends. This one doesn't want to let me go, but else I wouldn't be able to pretend being polite and tolerate. I'd be getting angrier and angrier... And nothing will ever help me. But my note is still alive: he can always rely on me if he has problems or needs help. I will just be closed for communication. It's like walking on nails for me - dealing with a friend who has a beautiful loved girl. I am just a shadow on the wall, call me when you need anything... I'll keep the memory of those minutes forever - together with footprints of other sweet moments of reality. I live in memories. And these will keep me being for a while as well. They are illegal. And I know I will have to pay for them - with inner or outside blood.
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28.04.2009 в 21:02what I don't understand however, is the reason for disappearing from his life. why can't you just be friends - if he wants to, if he doesn't want to let you go? a good friend is hard to find these days.
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29.04.2009 в 00:58