Your whisper is fast and silent. Those are newsreaders.
It's tomorrow. Haven't decided with the look yet - either Gothic Lolita with the makeup of Mana and hair of Manson (just in blue version), or a Japanese-style long dress and a strange hairstyle - if I manage to find the wooden sticks to fix the hair.
But mum is against it. She says "we'll get arrested" as we're going to take pics in a forbidden place - in the underground. What did you think about?
It's a task for photo journalism. Why me? The girls suggested this because "I have a lot of bright clothes". *LOL* And for me it would be a good opportunity to annoy the stupid friend's boyfriend. He despises me? I wonder who will be the first to fall into mud with the face...

But mum's disapprovement has a meaning. I guess she is trying to protect me from disappointment if someone says I'm awful. She doesn't perceive me in the sense of appearance, but other people do. She realises I don't look good in pics, but doesn't tell this to me directly, hides behind kind jokes. She's very polite and will never say... But she doesn't know I feel her very well...
I feel guilty for agreeing for that role. I am too arrogant and think too good about myself... Now realised I'm not worth any good attitudes.


@музыка: Yousei Teikoku: Pray in the Darkness

@настроение: upset