Nobody

[Orchid.ua]

No loved one was waiting for me near the University. Because no loved one exists and will never exist.

Some are loved, while the others have to love without being loved. Change of destiny is impossible. It hardly ever occurs, maybe when God's PC has bugs. But this happens only to some lucky people. I must get used to the thought: I am single forever. I repeat this to myself not to have dreams anymore...
There is the one I love - but he has forgotten about me. He has his own life...
From today I'd send all guys to hell - if anyone showed attention. It's better to die in pain than to be fucked by somebody.

@музыка: Otto Dix: The Reflection

@настроение: crushed

Comments

[[chuchundra]]

hmm... looks like "forever" is one of your favorite words. Should I tell you, that it is even worse, when you know, that someone could be waiting for you after lessons, (lectures) and you see no one?

[Orchid.ua]

[chuchundra], I hate this word as it describes only fuckin feelings of stupid happy loved people or my pain.
That is what I have - I make myself believe sb is there. Then I come out - and nobody's there....

[[chuchundra]]

emotions and facts should not be mixed together. Otherwise it will be too much pain. But the questiion is, do you want to have less pain? We are masters of our lives and only we selves can decide on feeling pain, or not feeling it. If it looks like you run in emotional circle, stop for a second, and ask, why am i doing it.

[Orchid.ua]

[chuchundra], these are not emotions. We can't decide anything about pain. Ugly ones feel it as a punishment for having not died as soon as they were born. I'm also one of these. Nothing can make me beautiful. And nothing can make him love me. Destiny can never changed...

[[chuchundra]]

you belive in destiny?

[Orchid.ua]

[chuchundra], I have to believe...

[[chuchundra]]

there is no thing like "have". YOu choose, what to believe. At least i sow no proof of otherwise

[Orchid.ua]

[chuchundra], I can't choose anything. No guy in the whole world likes me.

[[chuchundra]]

I speak of destiny, not of guys. There is a difference

[Orchid.ua]

[chuchundra], my destiny is to love without being loved.

[[chuchundra]]

love doesn'T consists only of love. At least not only of live to boys and people.

[Orchid.ua]

[chuchundra], guys hate me. And love their fuckin beautiful girlfriends.

[[chuchundra]]

you miss my point. Live is not ONLY guys. There is another things, so just concentrayt on some other stuff. Less you look for someone, more chancen, that you will find one.
Und Ja, das ist von erfahrung.

[Orchid.ua]

[chuchundra], it's clearly seen that you're loved. People who are happy never know what pain it is - to be loved by nobody.
I will never find one, too old for what I need, and I don't want to be a walking cunt. I'm not of those "little and cute" creatures. ((

[[chuchundra]]

i am 19 years. for last year i am loved, but 18.5 years i was extra unlucky in love.

Change of destiny is impossible.

There's no destiny.

From today I'd send all guys to hell - if anyone showed attention.

I think communicating with guys who show attention to you wouldn't be so dangerous...as you expect every guy to ask you to be intimate with him, if that happens, you'd just screw him, m? (of course you won't really listen to me) However, by communicating with guys you'll get a chance to meet smb who won't need only sex.

We are masters of our lives and only we selves can decide on feeling pain, or not feeling it. If it looks like you run in emotional circle, stop for a second, and ask, why am i doing it.

Totally agree

[Orchid.ua]

[chuchundra], sorry, I don't believe. Moreover, you can let him fuck you, and I can't.
Kendoru, there is. Beauties are loved and ugly creatures are despised.
No positive attention will be - only despise and laughter. All guys would only like to fuck, they do it with ugly girls thinking they miss fucking and will do it with anybody. And no attitude I was dreaming of will be possible anymore. All of them need sex. ((
We can't stop pain. Happy and loved ones, maybe, can, but not cursed ones.

Hm...the first example of an unbeautiful but successful and loved woman, which came to my mind immediately, is Yoko Ono) Actually, she became on of the reasons why The Beatles sropped playing...

You know,  UNhell was VERY surprised that you consider yourself not beautiful. We're both VERY surprised

[Orchid.ua]

Kendoru, her face is beautiful. And also brains were available.
Why? I have ugly different eyes...