Your whisper is fast and silent. Those are newsreaders.
I saw him online in the gmail chat and said hello. Right, he's my ex, far from perfection, but I thought he still loves me a bit - according to what he told me. Being single forever is hard to accept, so I thought about stepping over myself and coming back to him. At least some love, even if it is artificial and half-imaginary. I will never get anything else or more, and it's better to have sth than nothing at all forever.
He wrote "hello beauty". I thanked him, he didn't understand what for. I explained I meant how he called me and that it's really pleasant for me to hear. He said that "not just "thank you" must be said for this, but also children should be born"
In a few minutes he asked when I will come to him. I asked what for. He answered: "for sex, communicating etc." I told him I'm not going to lay down under anybody - and he said I will be on him. I repeated I'm not going to sleep with anyone about 4 times. He said I promised (!!!) to marry him. I said I haven't. And he said goodbye...
One thing has been understood for sure. I'm suitable only for a fuck. Hurts, hard to accept... I know I should give up, or else nobody won't even notice me. But I can't, there's sth inside of me, some feeling, fear, disgust... I'd better die than let anyone do that to me. It's so dirty and painful... Guys disappear after that and a girl is known as a whore...
People never say sth pleasant to me sincerely. Now I'm sure. They either need sth or mean the opposite thing. People are sincere and really kind only to beauties, only they are truly loved by guys.
I'm just a body to fuck. Guys think ugly girls don't understand it and it's enough to say sth pleasant to get a body. They see no difference in what cunt to fuck. Virgins are sth they boast about when they're with friends. This is why they hunt for me. But I know what they want for sure. And I will do my best to kick them as far from myself as possible.
I wish I could get a second of sincere love...
He wrote "hello beauty". I thanked him, he didn't understand what for. I explained I meant how he called me and that it's really pleasant for me to hear. He said that "not just "thank you" must be said for this, but also children should be born"
In a few minutes he asked when I will come to him. I asked what for. He answered: "for sex, communicating etc." I told him I'm not going to lay down under anybody - and he said I will be on him. I repeated I'm not going to sleep with anyone about 4 times. He said I promised (!!!) to marry him. I said I haven't. And he said goodbye...
One thing has been understood for sure. I'm suitable only for a fuck. Hurts, hard to accept... I know I should give up, or else nobody won't even notice me. But I can't, there's sth inside of me, some feeling, fear, disgust... I'd better die than let anyone do that to me. It's so dirty and painful... Guys disappear after that and a girl is known as a whore...
People never say sth pleasant to me sincerely. Now I'm sure. They either need sth or mean the opposite thing. People are sincere and really kind only to beauties, only they are truly loved by guys.
I'm just a body to fuck. Guys think ugly girls don't understand it and it's enough to say sth pleasant to get a body. They see no difference in what cunt to fuck. Virgins are sth they boast about when they're with friends. This is why they hunt for me. But I know what they want for sure. And I will do my best to kick them as far from myself as possible.
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25.06.2008 в 02:46"I told him I'm not going to lay down under anybody - and he said I will be on him" - шутил наверно =))
"repeated I'm not going to sleep with anyone about 4 times." - эээ..а почему 4 а не 3, или скажем 5..или 6 =))так стоп...подожди...извини за приватный вопрос..блин...а ты что с ним спала уже что-ли? 0_о раз он так с тобой говорит...
и вообще, я на такие слова, када мне пишут, всегда отвечаю с усмешкой, типа да, дорогусик, уже беру одеяльце и бегу к тебе...
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25.06.2008 в 11:06I'm not sure if he joked, later he said "I'm serious."
No, I have never slept with anyone, I'm a virgin. He wanted to fuck me and I said "no" every time. It was the reason of about 5 our breakups.
4 times - after the 4th he went away.
If I also joked that way, he'd have taken everything seriously.
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25.06.2008 в 17:52Of course there are reasons WHY I like him, he is really loving, kind, he cared of me, kissed and hugged and didn't resist when I did the same. He let me sit on his laps and didn't say I'm too heavy. He never left me alone and held my hand, he wrote nice messages to me and called the way I could just dream of. And he didn't beat me or push away for a different kind of makeup, clothes or anything else...
He wants just a fuck, not more. I knew he's a whore hopper, but was ready to forgive that...