Your whisper is fast and silent. Those are newsreaders.
I'm dreaming of beautiful eyes... Recently a new trend has appeared - making scars on the body, and it's considered to be fashionable. (Nevertheles, I hate it as well as piercing) But scars on eyes are sth bad. Yes, my eyes are different.
Don't think I wanted my face to be like this. If I knew the operation will have this result, I would never let anyone do it. I would already be blind, and I know I'd have committed suicide then. But I wouldn't be ugly. There could be no world of beauties for me. No pain, no losing those I love, no disappointment in me - for friends and family.
I'm sorry for my being alive. I wish I knew... I wish I could look into eyes of people I love without scaring them. I wish I could have beautiful photos. I wish nobody was ashamed of me...
Please, forgive my stupid dreaming. I know dreaming of having beautiful eyes will never have any results, I mean - good results. It is sometimes said that if you think of sth for a long time, it comes true. Maybe it's this way with some events or things like that. But physical body is different. If it's ugly - nothing can help.
Almost all of those whores are models. I'm sometimes even dreaming of...being better than them . I realise people are already thinking of killing me for this sinful thought. I'm dreaming of being admired instead of being laughed at. Of leaving them far behind. Of an opportunity to tell them "What? Thought your dirty pierced cunt is allmighty? Girl, you've mistaken."
These are just useless stupid dreams. They're the beauty of this world, and I'm the ugliness. The most interesting thing is that there's not a single person in this world who would consider them to be ugly. XD
I once wrote about an American "Agency of Ugly Models". Why isn't there anything like this in Ukraine? Then there would be at least one place where beauties wouldn't be adored... And where I wouldn't be a weed among roses... A funny Ukrainian exprеssion, I know. ^^ But it suits the situation perfectly.
Don't think I wanted my face to be like this. If I knew the operation will have this result, I would never let anyone do it. I would already be blind, and I know I'd have committed suicide then. But I wouldn't be ugly. There could be no world of beauties for me. No pain, no losing those I love, no disappointment in me - for friends and family.
I'm sorry for my being alive. I wish I knew... I wish I could look into eyes of people I love without scaring them. I wish I could have beautiful photos. I wish nobody was ashamed of me...
Please, forgive my stupid dreaming. I know dreaming of having beautiful eyes will never have any results, I mean - good results. It is sometimes said that if you think of sth for a long time, it comes true. Maybe it's this way with some events or things like that. But physical body is different. If it's ugly - nothing can help.
Almost all of those whores are models. I'm sometimes even dreaming of...being better than them . I realise people are already thinking of killing me for this sinful thought. I'm dreaming of being admired instead of being laughed at. Of leaving them far behind. Of an opportunity to tell them "What? Thought your dirty pierced cunt is allmighty? Girl, you've mistaken."
These are just useless stupid dreams. They're the beauty of this world, and I'm the ugliness. The most interesting thing is that there's not a single person in this world who would consider them to be ugly. XD
I once wrote about an American "Agency of Ugly Models". Why isn't there anything like this in Ukraine? Then there would be at least one place where beauties wouldn't be adored... And where I wouldn't be a weed among roses... A funny Ukrainian exprеssion, I know. ^^ But it suits the situation perfectly.
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21.04.2008 в 16:05М-ммм, а мне понравились твои глаза, и фото нравятся. Ты красивая и очень милая, вот честно, не говорил бы если бы так не думал
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21.04.2008 в 16:13Thanx... So nice to read this... But all pics have been edited. The reality has been shown many times
I have wandered through whores' photo albums on a famous Ukrainian (???) site... I will never be able to become like them...
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21.04.2008 в 23:25I like them too. My favorite quote is also from their song. ^^ "Nothing ever comes of nothing..." I just wish this band didn't remind me of the unmerciful whore hopper...
Честно говоря, больше всего я люблю песню The Bandage Song *_____* Я просто от нее фанатею. если бы ее включили на какой-то готик-пати... /мечтает, мечтает/ она такая сильная по эмоциям, что прямо дух захватывает.
^_______^ все равно нравишся, мур )))
мли тоже отредактированы, у меня мерзкая привычка из высветлять или делать черно-белыми )) Из-за этого многие думат что я красивее чем есть на самом деле. )) о-оо, одно утро развеивает все иллюзии, хотя по большему счету... это как-то не особо важно.
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22.04.2008 в 18:14Thanx, I wish I could be liked without photoshop or makeup... But these are only ways not to scare people...
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22.04.2008 в 20:29А мне когда-то нравились, правда после третих Детей ночи я разочаровался, однако в этом виновата мерзка организация.
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22.04.2008 в 21:56I still wonder what's the name of the whore who stole my happiness.....