Sth strange is happening around me... It has always been this way, but now this is much more noticeable.
Love&HATREDI wish, I wish I could... I wish I could hold anger on some people, I wish I could hate them. Of course, not for nothing. Now I mean the beloved scientist who left me and says he likes me again - as he needs to get one thing - and he thinks it is only me who can get it for him. I don't hate him. The same friendly attitude. I don't know why.
Only a scar inside has been left. So what? Nothing. 
And that unmerciful whore hopper - he's the only one I hate. Maybe not personally him, but her, who told him how it is possible to get rid of a half-blind one. There was one thing she took no account about - I forgave. Everything. Yes, I am not able to forgive anymore. A small detail: I still can. To people who are eespecially close to me. Almost anything. And I wouldn't advice you to check this. Or else there will appear an unforgettable chance of losing me forever, if this has meaning for anybody.
I try to protect myself from people, and sometimes still trust them. Mostly virtually, in real life there's a limit of about 93% (and in virtuality it's 100% at times). Though there are people who are trusted to that degree. 
Amily, Leen-Chan, Kaori, Miya - people from real life whom I trust more than myself.
I try to do evil meaningly - and can't do anything more than calling a friend's girlfriend a whore. XDD Or do my best to laugh at the beautiful ass-licking school whore, never miss an opportunity to mention her being overweight. And that the satanist sign in her lip looks like a problem with skin. Sometimes I show my favorite American move to the teacher - of course, from under the desk. I feel impossibly sorry after this. I'm dreaming of becoming brave enough to do more. The problem is fear...
I do my best not to show my stupid smile. Nevertheless, this is what I always do when someone approaches me with a good attitude. Or just without reason - when I remember sth nice. This often happens. Everywhere - at a lesson, in the street, at the office. I can't keep myself from smiling when I see an animal. Right, I always speak to them. And they look at me with kind eyes. I don't care of what people think of me. ))Thoughtful imagesAnd thoughts... Most people try my thoughts on themselves. This is nice, but I feel I might hurt someone. For example, that entry about the heart... It doesn't have anything in common with any real person. Yes, there are features of some friends. But this is about an image from my mind that is always with me. I'm not sure he exists anywhere. It has features of real people - more from one person, less from another one, a bit from someone more... Maybe someone can even say I'm in love with my best friend or my teacher, also a close friend. We have impossible relations. And I love all friends of mine, not depending on what they do or think. I'm not against being a doctor's call centre for girls and a psychologist for guys. I like helping people. I'm serious. I wish I didn't hurt anyone.
My thoughts are strange with a strong touch of marasmus. So I'm sorry if I've hurt someone. I think I already wrote about it somewhen.
I don't mean anything bad.
P.S. I can wish evil - to beautiful whores. ^^ Here I'm also serious.
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Fleur: Сны в раскаленной пустыне
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amused