Fuck off

[Orchid.ua]

It was about 2 o'clock at night on that day. Fortunately no mindfucking and they all went to sleep. That meant I was able to sit on the windowsill looking down.

It was cold, but, as it's said, drunk people see all the world in a different way. Yes, it wasn't very high. Maybe yes, maybe no... She's 28, he's 24. She will never let him go. And..I don't want that, he deserves happiness and I deserve a cruel death... It was so close, only one step from me, one step out of the window...

But what the fuck do I always have the mobile in my pocket???? A friend called and in a heart-breaking voice said he needs to talk or else he'll explode. His gf left him... I always knew that beautiful bitch isn't devoted... We talked till 6 o'clock in the morning. Another try failed... I'll think over sth new, I don't deserve to exist.

Ok, I will not post photos anymore. Only for those who are really interested in them - if there still are people like that.

Why do I turn inside out here? Read next.

Reputation

Anyone can access my diary. Some people should know me as a selfish bitch - and I'm sometimes doing sth to keep this image.

Truth

You know what my job is, even though I don't deserve to be called a journalist. And my task is to show and tell the truth. About everything. Even if this everything is nothing, I'll tell the truth - that it's nothing. I don't care - I do what's my task in work and existence. Yes - there's also the ugly part of this world, not only the beautiful one with a very good PR strategy. Right, people, the world, like the Moon, also has 2 sides. And I'm showing you the dark one, the hidden one, as it is.

Trust

Moreover, I trust those who read the diary all the time. Maybe I won't anymore, I have to think of this as I've seen a bit of disrespect. I didin't expect deception or betrayal here, but now I know anything can happen. I trusted. That's why I posted the unsucessful or too explicit pics without fear. I also have feelings, sorry if they're too unattractive for you. I'm sure all of you have had minutes of insanity. I wish you never felt pain like this, but I'd also like to see you when your dream gets broken forever.
Thank you for reading stupid things. Nobody cares of me? I don't care about anyone as well. I never forget bad things said to me. Right, I'm so bad. You can't even imagine.

@музыка: Paradise Lost: Close your eyes

@настроение: depressed and ANGRY

Comments

[Риш]

Тебя задело, и это хорошо.

Читаю потому что интересно. До тех пор пока ты не научишся воспринимать себя такой какая ты есть, хоть немножко, хоть иногда не полюбишь себя и не осознаешь что все плевать хотели на твои глаза-ты будешь несчастна.Как бы не банально это звучало, но как ты себя сама восринимаешь, так тебя и воспринимают другие. Хотя я и сама перестаю в то верить

Ok, I will not post photos anymore. Only for those who are really interested in them - if there still are people like that.

Ультиматумы можешь не ставить.Это твой дненвик, не наш. Я всегда говорила что ты красива. Но почему-то все сказанные комплименты ты забываешь, а все сказазанные обидные слова помнишь. Странно. Кстати, может причрина что тебя якобы "не любят" именно в этом, а не "ugly face". Но я не буду тебя учить

[Orchid.ua]

Риш, I don't care. I'd like to say sth dirty to protect myself - but I don't want to lose brain cells on that. They can hardly be renewed and I need them for more important things than...