Your whisper is fast and silent. Those are newsreaders.
Just come back - we were visiting my Granny. Wild laughing at the kitchen, drinking Grandpa's wine, playing with my cousin. A heart-to-heart talk with my aunt, passive smoking and wearing long earrings. Hair done up and..eyes could be seen. >_< I wonder why people stared at me like that...
To everyone who has contacted me in any way today- THANK YOU!
You'll never understand how important is your attention to me.
I have money for my dead dream to come true. But can anything take sth back from the other world? Nothing. Nobody is waiting for me there, so far away. Not anymore...
I received 2 messages. Strange ones. From the biologist. He's dangerous for me, but I'm afraidI miss him. He seemed not to be ashamed of me...
Here:
#1. 22:29
#2. 22:44
The last msg is so... I can say - scary. One of approximately 5 times he left me was because I refused to lose virginity, I didn't want to have a fuck with him. And it seems he still hopes... But why??? Now I'm sure I'm suitable only for being used and nothing else. He was also ashamed of me, but he had a purpose.
I think I'll do this mistake and meet him. At least sb will (maybe) hold my hand. Maybe there will be sth like a hug or a kiss, insincere, of course. But there's nothing else a creature like me can expect. I've never tried drugs and I'm not going to do it- despite this fact I know what I'm doing is the same. Some people, like those incurably ill, use drugs as painkillers... Curses cannot be healed - and I'm trying to get rid of pain. I know I'll surely die in the end.
Mum says it can be extremely dangerous. He says he's going abroad forever, so he must have nothing to fear here. He can even rape me... He can do anything. But do I care? I'll surely die in the end. And there's no faraway dream to live for anymore...
What am I doing? Maybe it's the only right way... The destination is the same one whatever I'll do...
I'm so brave when drunk...
To everyone who has contacted me in any way today- THANK YOU!
You'll never understand how important is your attention to me. I have money for my dead dream to come true. But can anything take sth back from the other world? Nothing. Nobody is waiting for me there, so far away. Not anymore...
I received 2 messages. Strange ones. From the biologist. He's dangerous for me, but I'm afraid
Here:
#1. 22:29
#2. 22:44
The last msg is so... I can say - scary. One of approximately 5 times he left me was because I refused to lose virginity, I didn't want to have a fuck with him. And it seems he still hopes... But why??? Now I'm sure I'm suitable only for being used and nothing else. He was also ashamed of me, but he had a purpose.
I think I'll do this mistake and meet him. At least sb will (maybe) hold my hand. Maybe there will be sth like a hug or a kiss, insincere, of course. But there's nothing else a creature like me can expect. I've never tried drugs and I'm not going to do it- despite this fact I know what I'm doing is the same. Some people, like those incurably ill, use drugs as painkillers... Curses cannot be healed - and I'm trying to get rid of pain. I know I'll surely die in the end.
Mum says it can be extremely dangerous. He says he's going abroad forever, so he must have nothing to fear here. He can even rape me... He can do anything. But do I care? I'll surely die in the end. And there's no faraway dream to live for anymore...
What am I doing? Maybe it's the only right way... The destination is the same one whatever I'll do...
I'm so brave when drunk...
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09.03.2008 в 04:01да нууу...наоборот развеешься, поболтаешь...
"I know I'll surely die in the end."
ну хватит блин думать о смерти..знаешь, был у мну знакомый по инету, ирландец, живущий в США..боже..он мне так часто говорил что умрет, что за все время нашего общения он мог бы умереть десятки сотен раз..так что успокойся.вот видишь, ты ентому челу мож нравишься(который те встретится предлагает) так что в любом случае ты не одна..=)
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10.03.2008 в 12:43