Sth strange...

[Orchid.ua]

He has been online for 3 days already... Strange of him. and the status on MySpace... I'm really worrying about him - has anything bad happened? Yes, I disappeared. But doesn't he remember there's a shadow he can call any time he wants?
Whatever attitude he has to me now - I love him the same way, not less. yes, he is not mine. But I am his.

My bugs. Fuck it all.

I hardly keep myself from writing "Hi, My Prince!" like I used to do when we both were single.
It's cold. Too cold to feel sth. The snow outside - it is so depressing... I wish I could be buried under it.

Each day I realise I don't want to live anymore. Who for? What for?
This world is not for lonely and ugly ones. EVERYONE has their beloved ones. And all guys are proud of their girls. It H U R T S. Too much for anything to kill. Too weak to kill me.

How long will this shit last?

I think there are too many questions... I'm sorry...

@музыка: Lacrimosa: Durch Nacht und Flut

@настроение: lonely

Comments

[the entity]

2.5 года прошло, а ты все циклишься. Айяйай.
Люди так редко замечают, что существует куча вещей, которые мы ставили, ставим и еще много раз сможем поставить поставим в центр нашего существования.

[Orchid.ua]

zapisi, about 4 years have passed since my divorce. The German Prince is not my ex. He's the only light male image in my mind. He has kept me breathing for a long time.
No one likes me and I should accept.

[the entity]

I'm not talking about specific man. I'm talking about specific point - for normal life woman needs the man, which she love. (I'm sure, what this is not exactly the real situation, but I can't describe it better).

[Orchid.ua]

zapisi, no.Girls do not necessary need a man. They need to have someone who would like them and no one else. That's not the same.

[the entity]

zapisi, no.Girls do not necessary need a man. They need to have someone who would like them and no one else. That's not the same.

There are almost always someone who likes you. In you case i'm sure we can reject "almost".
So this is not what I spoke about too. You should think about something else.

[Orchid.ua]

zapisi, some foreign people say they like me. Here there's nobody.