The fuckin youth magazine seems to have published the truth: "Little girls are for love, big ones are for hard work"... Why do men think big girls have no feelings???
It's true that nobody is single in the world... I went out to eat today as feel too lazy to cook. And ALL people were on dates. Even those who seemed to be having a business lunch from the 1st sight. I was the ONLY single at the cafe. Some idiot was holding and caressing the hand of his little cute whore. And I tried to imagine him breaking that hand, her blood dropping on the table and her suffering face... Didn't help. Orchid, you ugly old bitch, whatever you imagine, they're together and you are single.
Let out fake information at university - that I've had a girlfriend. Only 2 people have heard, but I'm sure soon lots more will know. I also mentioned I'm an androgyne. And that my ex lives abroad. I don't know why I did that.
Bought the goth sunglasses I had been searching for ages.
And also lots of WHITE cloth to make the dress.
The more depressed I feel, the more money I spend on food. Also don't know why. Because this doesn't make me happier.
Missed the corporate party - I really have no wish to go out.
Even a phone talk with K. didn't cheer me up as it usually did. Maybe because I realised he has also no interest in me.
Ok, if no guy likes me - I'll hate all of them. They only love beauties and then complain those use them. No wonder. Guys run after beauties and I'm just what is under their feet and has no value. Well, ok then...
My article is not accepted anywhere, no guy likes me... Maybe it is a sign?