I've passed that exam - was answering to the professor himself! ^_^ Yep, still can't believe I have got the mark from Ivanov - some people know the phenomenon of this personality. He told me he had...mistaken by having put the mark into the wrong cell - so it turned out that I received it. XD
A strange thing is happening to me. Like sth I used to struggle with many years ago -but even worse as this time it's too real.
I kept myself from doing the terrible mistake - just used some methods of my job - and found out everything I needed. Painlessly. Nobody understood what it was - except another journalist. But the object I tried to study *OMFG, how arrogant of me* didn't notice anything. I hope so.
Stop this, please! I am getting addicted again. Flowers... How stupid of me! How did I even dare to think of this? I am already tired of running after guys to get their attention. Beautiful girls are ran after, ugly ones like me have no other choice except doing that to guys. And it never ends in success.
That friend... I know nothing is possible. Trying to cut all the wires. But still can't stop thinking. And yesterday's "I miss you" was sth like a bone for the dog. I know, I know I shouldn't give up to him, nothing is possible. He has a stupid young cute gf an a lot of whores as well. I don't want to be another one, and the 2nd, 3rd relations etc. can never be true feelings.
I wish I could do sth to myself not_to_think... Flowers... How could I ever carry out such a stupid idea...