I failed the test. One of the most important ones. All future depended on it. If I have less than 124 points... then I won't be able to enter the University.
For now I know I've done 1 mistake in the Ukrainian language part (I'm sure I have more, that one is just what I remember) and about 4 in the Literature part. There are much more, of course.
The composition. Here's what made me fail. A stupid topic for it, the biggest problem were examples from literature and history. My "eternal" ones, which can be mentioned in almost any composition, were useless here. So I had to think of statements to prove - with examples, of course. I wrote this on a draft as points were taken away for correcting. And then it was said 15 minutes have remained. So I did my best to rewrite everything, I made all the statements shorter in order to mention all necessary examples. I was nervous, my hand was shaking so strongly that I couldn't hold the pen. As a result my handwriting was even worse than it really is. The conclusion is so stupid... Just 1 sentence without a meaning.
I have to cross all dreams of future. It's not my destiny. Not talented, not intelligent, I stay shut up about the face. No University will accept me. It's just the first test. What will be with all next ones? ...
The only good minute of this day is that I managed to spit at the side of a couple. I was on my way home with 2 friends when we noticed a happy couple in front of us. Hugs and kisses... My impossible stupid dream past. No more, the price of this is too big. I wish it was just money... So they were walking in front of us and then... stopped and started kissing, a long French kiss. Me and the unmerciful whore hopper once had a 28-minute-long kiss. But this is PAST. Nobody would like to kiss sb with cut eyes, only for some dirty purpose.
When we were walking past those people, I said "I'm going to throw up!" And then asked girls if I said it loudly enough. They answered I had, and we think not only the couple heard my opinion. Then we laughed wildly, thought I'd roll on the ground laughing. =)
Nevertheless, nothing can correct failure...