I've got new contacts, they're bright green!!
Fisrtly I wanted cat ones, but my doctor said they're uncomfortable as I would have to look into a small hole, and this would be almost impossible when it is dark, so that I'd be nearly blind. So I chose these ones.
Today I'm having an interview with Igor Miroshnychenko, the newsreader I was dreaming of for 4 years...lol, this was my dream then and I never thought it will ever come true. Now it's just a part of my work. I wonder if he gets scared of my gothic look...and if he recognises me. But nevertheless I'm worrying... So wish me good luck!
The German guy I met online is taking over me, I even had a dream about him this night - it was in English. I'm not in love, but he is my meaning... Yesterday I told him I missed him while he was offline. He asked me not to get addictd to him. I didn't say I already am despite I wanted to. This would be too much for his understanding. I don't want to lose it.
Kaori, now I'm just like you - pictures of some people are the essential part of your life. I also stare at his pic imagining him being with me, here, wherever I am. I talk to the pic, I realise he'll never understand me. A perfect one...
I decided to email him a short video with myself, made by a mobile. Is this a good idea? I'm so much afraid of losing him...
And I'm also showing my pic with the contacts.