Online life is taking over me, it has replaced my real one. No one disturbs my real-life friends anymore, at last they can be free, without me calling every day just to hear them...
You're online too. That's why I'm writing in English, not just because it's easier for me to express my thoughts that way...
I realise I'm just a name in your contact list, not more. No one takes online talks as seriously as I do. But you're the meaning of my life, each day of it means just to waste time until you come online...
I've never had anything like that, especially to someone I have just talked with several times...
My friends say I'm in love. IT ISN'T TRUE!!!!I'm not as love doesn't exist for me anymore as a part of reality! it's only in my fuckin dreams and everyone knows who it belongs to.
So what is it? Just a stupid search of the feeling of being loved and significant? Or tha desire to fuck of the real life?
Everything disappears when I talk to you. Even my tears don't hurt so badly. Yes, they still do, but not the way it happens when someone of us if offline.
What's going on with me? I'm scared, what can I do with all this?????????