I am alone again. He said he doesn't love me anymore and told me 2 4get about him. Just pain and blood and nothing more.

I did my best to make him happy, I chnged myself according 2 his likes and dislike.

I have presented him my heart and soul. He burnt all that. He hates me now.

I hope I'll manage to kill myself tonight.

Bye to everyone who liked me.I'm sorry for the things I did the wrong way. But I was just a person - not a perfect one. I died for all you and for him especially. No one needs me in this world now.

I don't have the meaning of my fuckin' life now. I have to go. you will alll be grtefu later. Yes, I know you'll feel some kind of pain at the first time, but later you'll understand everything.

and please, if someone knows or just sees him somewhere,tell him I died with his name on my lips

.....I loved you all........

Bye.

Forever yours, Orchid