I know I'm behaving like an emo. But my wish/feeling doesn't depend on my will, I never want to show my tears off. This diary is a place where I can be myself. Where I don't hide what I conceal in real life. Sorry anyway.
Looks as if my emotions and eyes live a separate life. Can't_hold_myself.
I have to. I have to be a strong boy. Especially in front of my mother. She shouldn't see my weakness.
I am used to self-control. When on air, I have no right to express emotions. Let's pretend I am on air now. Today - Orchid is live @... channel/station.