11:23

The bite

Your whisper is fast and silent. Those are newsreaders.
Only the strongest ones survive. This is a well-known statement of the evolution theory by Charles Darwin. That is - only those who find their best place in this world will exist, the rest will simply give up and die. Everything struggles for survival...

The law of existence.

Nevertheless, nobody knows if he/she will survive or not. And everything is trying to protect itself. Those perfect ones don't think of it - the Universe is for them, they only struggle with each other for things that mean less than nothing in the other part of the world. This part's destination is survival. Or, at last, existing as long as possible. Here is where different ways of defence come from. The most effective of them is attack.

If I see danger, I try to give that person a strong unexpected bite at once. While he/she is trying to get better after the painful shock, I will have some time to run away. Yes, maybe he/she will catch and defeat me in a short time. But at least I'd die with a thought I've also hurt him or her...

@музыка: Fleur: Если мы не умрем

@настроение: lonely

Your whisper is fast and silent. Those are newsreaders.
Just looked through pics of one of the famous Ukrainian goth whore models. There's also a lot of fan art... Girls like her rule the world. They're perfect. I understand and see all people are like that, they have no disadvantages. Everyone. Except me.
Why am I a mere mortal? Where have all of them come from?
I'm odd in their reality. But they're in the virtual world too.
I wish someone liked me more than them...

@музыка: deafening silence

@настроение: lonely

21:22

Morning

Your whisper is fast and silent. Those are newsreaders.
Found sth on the net - exactly what I have every morning. :lol:
play.ukr.net/videos/show/key/576d42a1bf99999e38...

@музыка: DJ Tiesto: Sweet Misery

17:02

Cursed

Your whisper is fast and silent. Those are newsreaders.
Sorry.
I know I'm boring as I don't drink, smoke or take drugs.
I also understand I will soon be completely alone because of this. People don't need boring ugly stupid creatures.
The only way out is to get used to the thought/fact that a curse is forever. One by one people are leaving or forgetting... And I'm trying to let them go.
Time passes and the end is not coming.
When will my useless existence end?
Of course, sth I'm trying to get used to: I don't need anybody.

@музыка: Mylene Farmer: Dessine Moi Un Mouton

@настроение: lonely

Your whisper is fast and silent. Those are newsreaders.
Found at a gothic whore's photo album on one of the famous sites.

A comment by sb - btw, a deleted user, to a pic of her face where the piercing can be clearly seen:
- Do you also have a piercing in your cunt?
Her answer:
-Not yet...

Yes, I've read sth about brain piercing in a newspaper, but there was written about those who have brains in heads. 2 holes are made in the skull, sth is put there that touches the brain causing the feeling of pleasure. Of course, it's extreme piercing, and no doctor approves that as nobody knows what can the results be, from an infection to insanity.
This one also wants brain piercing. The difference is that her brain is in...


@настроение: :lol:

23:00

Last.exam!

Your whisper is fast and silent. Those are newsreaders.
Today was the last one, in Law. The easiest exam - maybe because Law interests me, not just as a school subject.
We'll see what will the result be.
Received some of the photos of the last school day. :) About 800 more are coming soon, I hope. What I already have brought back a lot of pleasant impressions. *happy and dreamy*
I was half asleep most of the time, so it wasn't a problem to stay calm. Even though near the school where the test took place I had to spend some time with other - already former, at last!!! - students of our school.

Those were exactly the people whose lifestyle can be described like this: drinking-going out-fucking-finding out where is who and who is on/under whom-remembering it as the greatest event in human history. I forgot to mention they think all that to be things of the highest importance, maybe even on the same level as the Olympic Games and The World Soccer Championship. XD

People. Only impressions and my stupid thoughts/offers

@музыка: Fleur: Обескровленная Мэри

@настроение: thoughtful

Your whisper is fast and silent. Those are newsreaders.

Ukraine has won, 1:0!!!!!!!!



@музыка: screaming!!!!

@настроение: happy

Your whisper is fast and silent. Those are newsreaders.
Have any mere mortals like me remained ANYWHERE in this world?
I see perfect people everywhere... They look higher than reality.
What am I doing here? ... Why am I still here?

@музыка: Nemo - Neznayomyj Brat

@настроение: lost

15:50

The answer

Your whisper is fast and silent. Those are newsreaders.
Of course! How didn't I understand this before... Now I know why friends are leaving me.

Yes, people want to have beautiful faces as friends. So my friends are leaving me and having friendly relations with goth whores.
And I thought they're just busy studying, working or sth like that... I'm so stupid. *laughes wildly*
They have chosen beautiful whores instead of me.
Then it should be this way..............

@музыка: Аэроплан: День в невесомости

@настроение: lonely

21:28

Understood

Your whisper is fast and silent. Those are newsreaders.
I understood that message was a sign for me to shut up, maybe - to fuck off.
And you're right.

You have your own life, I have unnecessary existence. I have no right to try to become any part of the life. It's not my territory. And I respect this, as well as its owner.
Hope this will be for the best in your life.

I'm writing this again: I will disappear, but there will always be a shadow on the walls around you - until you kill it. I'm not indifferent to what's going on with you.

You know what to contact any time you need to talk or anythng else in this stupid world. I'm always there for you.

@музыка: killing silence

@настроение: lost

22:46 

Доступ к записи ограничен

Your whisper is fast and silent. Those are newsreaders.
Закрытая запись, не предназначенная для публичного просмотра

23:35

Tests

Your whisper is fast and silent. Those are newsreaders.
Unbelievable! I got... 11 in Ukrainian and - even more strange - 10 in history!!!
Am I dreaming again? ^^

@музыка: Fleur: Искупление

@настроение: happy

21:24

Whore-haters

Your whisper is fast and silent. Those are newsreaders.
I think all girls who hate whores will enjoy this. =)
bt-lady.com.ua/?articleID=2635

@настроение: satisfied

Your whisper is fast and silent. Those are newsreaders.
I think everyone knows where the idea has come from.



Btw, I've been to the "Wave UFO". What's written about and shown on TV is not what there's in reality. That kind of art - yes, there is art, but many people asked where - is aimed on perception of each person, of what happens in the mind. The name of the whole exhibition - "Oneness" - means the idea of unity. And how can this be shown on TV?

@музыка: Башня Rowan: Пчелы

@настроение: thoughtful

Your whisper is fast and silent. Those are newsreaders.
Talking to Dennis always makes me the happiest I've ever been... ;) I'm serious.
Sorry for the quality of the pic - a webcam is evil. ^^


@музыка: Ольга Пулатова: Если мы не умрем

@настроение: thoughtful/dreamy

Your whisper is fast and silent. Those are newsreaders.
I'm playing another spying game.
Listening to a beautiful story. And... I've heard I'm not one of the characters.

The Earth is spinning fast - and I have to manage to stand on the surface...



@музыка: Fleur: Будь моим смыслом

@настроение: lost

Your whisper is fast and silent. Those are newsreaders.
I'm a living creature too.

"A thin skin bag for guts and bones" (c) Fleur (translated)

I feel pain too. Sometimes even need to talk, can you imagine this?
And nobody has time for me.
People are too busy.

I will close the door. I don't need anybody.

I hope nobody will contact me after I've written about this, I HATE people licking my ass. I didn't ask for anything.

I am by and for myself. My fortress is defended only by myself.

People used to tell me about their lives, about their thoughts and feelings... And I didn't feel I'm a ghost... It's in the past. I'm transparent. Stupid veil of dust.

@настроение: lonely

Your whisper is fast and silent. Those are newsreaders.
Kesha is a bit ill, and we had to sth not to let him lick the wound.
Doesn't he look stylish? ^^
Sorry for the quality, the pic is from a phone.



@музыка: Dream Theater: These Walls

@настроение: tired

19:41

2 years...

Your whisper is fast and silent. Those are newsreaders.
Everything reminds me of time today...
On May, 12, 2006 I was cut. My eye. I'm sth instead of sb for already 2 years.
I've been like this for 2 years...
2 years after all...
Getting old... I feel it even physically

@настроение: scared

Your whisper is fast and silent. Those are newsreaders.
I've ordered these online:
For my graduation. Now trying to make sth for the jewelry. The necklace doesn't seem as complicated as the bracelet. I wish it looked the way I want it to be.

Earrings. What should they be like? I still don't know... But... an idea... *gone away to catch*


@музыка: Fleur: Коралловые небеса

@настроение: busy