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What did you tell your parents when they caught you smoking?

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This all looks like the 2006 events. But much more serious.

The feeling of unpleasant trance and helplessness.



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Looked through photos of beautiful lolitas... I'm afraid this style really looks awkward on me. The face and height kill all possiilities...

I wish I could become beautiful.



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Dear God... please, let me have hair stroked and the hand held sincerely in a dream tonight...

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I'm always trying to keep friendly and open relationships with other people when we're doing something in a group. A dancing class isn't an exclusion. What is more, events like that are mostly nice girls' companies united by the same activity, funny failures and successful moves. Sometimes. :P At least it used to be this way in 2005.

When the class is over I always ask girls if someone's going to the same district as I am - it's much more fun to walk together. Even if the bus stop is the only common point for all. Today I asked the same question but...

- My boyfriend's already waiting for me...
- My sweet heart is driving me home today...
- *on the phone* Yes, love, it's over and I'm already coming out of the club...

Oh well... I have a dying music player with Adrian von Ziegler, Iron Maiden, Sopor Aeternus, Stratovarius and XP8, and a fully charged telephone with Emilie Autumn, some of Dream Theater and Apocalyptica and lots of GingerSnap5 and The Cruxshadows. It can be much better than most of girls' talks if they're not within a long-term friendly company, right? :)

But whatever I was trying to remind myself of, I felt so defective... ALL of them have what I don't. And some are even younger than me...


Walking towards the road I found a solution I always use in painful situations. I should work harder! Then I'll make enough money to afford paying someone for meeting me after class! Wouldn't that be cool? What is more, I'd support small business and the harmless piece of shadow economy (sounds so goth!) - I'd create at least one workplace!

Of course personal life is the most important thing for many people. I do understand and respect it, but still the latest classes have left light bruises on my inside.
It is safe to WALK alone, in a place EVERYONE knows... :P

P.S. I remember promising not to post depressive personal shit in this blog. I always say that everything personal stays outside the newsroom. And since this place is my little virtual newsroom, I have to admit I let the personal thing here for... a cup of cyanide tea. So, dear personal crap, finish the tea and get the fuck out of here to die somewhere else. ^___^

 

X-posted from my public blog orchideestachelig.blogspot.com/

 

The post looks so naked that I feel ashamed for it. Here's something that's not really worth attention but at least it's visually perceivable and hasn't been posted anywhere yet. Today I decided to wear the flower-patterned tee with the leather corset. Turned out nice, I think. I'm also glad it hides my spine problems. But I've come up with wishing to have a long leather skirt. Oh no, more sewing...



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OMG... this is scary but attractive... Its sweet and cute for fuckin frightening for some reason...

I suggest looking up if you like baby art. Particularly for [J]Reiha Rin[/J] ;)

www.shwethirikhit.com/p/artwork.html



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Do you know any blogs of single but successful and beautiful females?

Please suggest some if you do, and it would be perfect if the bloggers weren't teens.

Thanks in advance.



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